I been doing just that. Leaving to go to work yesterday I gave her the normal quick kiss and I love you, and headed for the door. I turned back and hugged her again and made her look me in the eye. I asked her "you know I do really love you, right?". She chuckled and yes, she knows. The chuckle was for you. Not a laugh, but an all-knowing release, because she knew where my words come from. That it was inspired by you. When I got home Saturday night, she asked how your were doing. I told her the truth. I said you looked like hell. Thin face. Sad eyes. Carried yourself different. She said, well I guess so. Hope that is not too harsh for me too say. But it is with no malice. The fact that you are both mentally and physically overwelmed buy Debbie's death is a fine tribute to how special she is to you. I would expect no less. She would be a mess if she lost you.

I hope you aren't beating yourself up, wishing you would have said more words to her about your love. I know you wished you had. Very normal. But don't think she doesn't know. She knew before. She knows now. After discussing it with my wife and my best friend at work (female), they assure me that "They know". Sure, you are correct, they like to here it, but when the lights are out, and they can't sleep and thoughts go deep into themselves, they know if you love them. They know from your actions. The respect. They know it, when they have to bite their tongue when their girl friend at work complains about how her man treats her. She can't tell the whole truth about the love and respect your two shared, for fear of making her friend feel even worse. Unloved people are unhappy. It is hard to hide. And from looking at her pictures, I'd bet that you knew when Debbie wasn't happy with something. She's too strong. Too spirited and confident for you not to know something was on her mind.

Don't regret. Rejoice. Be proud of what you two have. Be proud of yourself. Long before you met her, she's her parents Baby Girl. You brought peace to a parents heart and mind when you brought the spark back into their daughter. Just as you and I pray for, when we think of our little girl meeting her soul mate.

Keep on moving your way. Before you know it the path will appear.