I am checking in to make sure all you husbands are reminding your wife's how much you love and care about them. Guys like myself have (in my case now, had) no idea how much a simple unexpected kiss, hug, or I love you means to women so make sure your wife's know you care.

As for me, I had my third therapy session today and my therapist admitted that she was very concerned after our first meeting but is happy with what she has seen on my last two visits. I guess I am doing the right thing by crying every single day since my wife passed. I find myself yelling and screaming as well. She says that those who keep it all bottled up inside suffer the longest. This is a miserable world I am living in and it is a major struggle dealing with it. Where I was once around 190lbs my body has stabilized around 173lbs. I may just stay at this weight since my running times are a lot better and I am wearing 32" waist pants rather than 34". I still feel like I have no direction in life and have no idea where this life is leading me. My daughters don't like hearing me say it but as a Christian, I would not mind going to bed and not waking up the next morning so that I can be reunited with my wife in Heaven but at the same time I know that is not God's plan so I continue to move forward.