I am no therapist but I do know the first step is admitting you have a problem. I was a party drinker 6-7 days a week 16 years ago. I was lucky and
just quit cold turkey. I helped an uncle quit and it was a hard thing to watch the withdrawals that he had to endure. I am sure there are more on this
board with experience and some more helpful advice than I can give! Right now you need family or friends to help and I will pray that you get the help
that you need! I also bet Popop will forgive you!