As a very recent survivor myself I know how your feeling, so much medical terminology that you may or may not understand is thrown at you and the docs give you looks as if to ask are you understanding this? I can tell you that it will get better, just breathe and don’t forget to say your prayers! I’m so glad you got to spend some time with your granddaughter, you’ll have to start planning the next trip after you kick cancer back where it belongs! My prayers are with you and your family, I’ll be waiting to see pics from your first cancer free trip!