Glad you are ok. I know the feeling. I once hit a log at night and my buddy pulled me out the boat. I ended up grabbing the transom. I was skipping along wide open looking at that 20 merc screaming. I reached up and hit the kill switch. I knew if I let go it would come back. Back then we didnt have tethers. Someone was watching over me that night. To this day I wont run a boat without a kill switch. I do need to start using a life jacket though.