Thread: For all husbands and an update from me.

Good pics Tap. Thanks for sharing them with us. Y'all look great together. Heck, who knew you could smile like that. She is beautiful. She must love ya. Geeesh.....look at you. That nose.....flat top hair (had more color then too).......Pearl Drops Teeth......no neck.....and that freaking Breeze-In-My-****zu shirt. If it wasn't for my busy schedule, I'd ride down there and kick the crap out of you just because. I never advertise it, but in the Commonwealth, I have to have a permit just to put my hands in my pocket. Concealment of weapons thing.

Tap, I just found this and I am saddened to hear of your loss. Sounds like you are sure of your faith and you will need it. Myself and my family will pray for you and the rest of your family. Hang in there and get yourself back out on the water when you feel like going, fishing will help you heal your wounds, its a good cure for about anything. With your faith in God, the attitude you have and the support of family and friends you will make it. Looking forward to seeing you at the NW bash.

I am checking in to make sure all you husbands are reminding your wife's how much you love and care about them. Guys like myself have (in my case now, had) no idea how much a simple unexpected kiss, hug, or I love you means to women so make sure your wife's know you care.

As for me, I had my third therapy session today and my therapist admitted that she was very concerned after our first meeting but is happy with what she has seen on my last two visits. I guess I am doing the right thing by crying every single day since my wife passed. I find myself yelling and screaming as well. She says that those who keep it all bottled up inside suffer the longest. This is a miserable world I am living in and it is a major struggle dealing with it. Where I was once around 190lbs my body has stabilized around 173lbs. I may just stay at this weight since my running times are a lot better and I am wearing 32" waist pants rather than 34". I still feel like I have no direction in life and have no idea where this life is leading me. My daughters don't like hearing me say it but as a Christian, I would not mind going to bed and not waking up the next morning so that I can be reunited with my wife in Heaven but at the same time I know that is not God's plan so I continue to move forward.

Stay the course Tap. You will move through. Rough going, but you will. One moment at a time.

Your faith will get you through this, still have you on my prayer list!

praying for you George,your faithfulness and His timing will come together

Heart wrenching, Tap. As you've said, we cannot feel your pain. But I can somewhat understand b/c I think of how lost I'd be and how directionless I'd be, like you said. You feel like everything you do throughout the day is just a temporary distraction from the reality you have to go home to and that there's nothing truly good or anything to look forward to.

I can't imagine brother. Like you said - you're doing the right things. There is just not some medicine they could give you to speed up heartache.

Hang in there brother. If anything, there is no better time in your life to reflect on where you are right now, what really matters in life, and what you want to do with the rest of your life. We all worry about "what if"....well, screw it....you just went through the worst possible thing that could happen to a fellow. What else is there to fear?

I've been following this since the beginning and just haven't been able to come up with anything to add to what the others have said. Today I was clearing snow and started talking to the old fellow across the street. He was saying that the snow reminded him of his late wife and how much she loved it and he loved her. I could tell he was getting a bit sad then he said "I'm just glad God let me borrow one of his angels for 50 years." Carry that thought with you George.