Sorry to hear Randy. You’ve had it rough lately and the CDC community hurts when you hurt. Prayers have been sent and just know these are the times when God is closest to you. It’s your faith that will get you through the sadness. You may not have happiness right now but you always have joy. Joy comes from knowing whatever this life has for you Jesus died for us and had prepared a place where there is no hurt, sadness or pain. Stay strong and this to shall pass.