This seems to be a growing club. I too strayed while being angry at God for close to 20 years for the illness and final passing of my first wife. One day about 7 years ago, I concluded that if I was mad at God, I still beleaved in him. This was a turning point in my life. I still have so many unaswered questions as to why my wife had to suffer and die; but, I have found much peace and many belessings since I have been seeking God's will. I have learned that man will judge us by how we react to our problems, but our reward after salvation will grow when we learn how to use our problems for His glory.
By the way...after 13 years I still want to smoke. I don't know if it ever goes away. Not drinking was easy, it started hurting too bad.
DP