Don't know you Fishbaskett, but you and yours are in my prayers. I trust that you are experiencing the sufficiency of God's grace in your sorrow. I read a story years ago about a pastor who was working on a sermon when his son entered the pastor's office. The young boy asked his dad about the picture that was on his desk. "Who is he," the boy asked. The father said, "He was my pastor when I was young." "Where is he, now," the boy asked. "He's dead," said the father. "No," said the boy' "he died, but he's not dead." The pastor/father said he learned a great faith-lesson that day. He died, but he lives now in the heavenly home. I trust you'll have that faith-picture in your mind about your son. And the glorious news is that you'll see him again!