First of all I would like to thank all of you for your care and prayers.if this is in wrong place may moderator move.I saw 4 Dr yesterday and they concluded that cancer is too big for surgery and that I would need shots ,well psa had jump from 97 to192 in pass few weeks, psa suppose to be under 2 .they decided to give me 2 shots in belly yesterday which is still sore and so can,t go fishing today,will be giving them 2 months then radiation treatment 5 days a week for 8 weeks at 200 miles a day,pass year has been tough ,wife son had heart attack and was air lifted last year then last month while we were very sick he fell and broke a few ribs and her younger son vessel broke in his brain and had to be air lifted also,she was still sick and went to see him ,I tried to go but could not stay up ,we both wanting to be in both places,but she needed to be with her son for a few days,now he is some better ,his speech is better and his hand moves better,dr say they will thr to glue it after blood clear up,and in the mean his wife is suppose to have back surgery and was in pain staying with him. We had to cancell all our camping not wanting to be away from him over night till he gets well, also my ex wife who has pass away ,her husband has made me put our building up for sell and he had nothing to do with it and never been in it ,I built and contracted it but that's the law. In all of this I try to say Thy will be done but another side of me is wanting my will be done . I need your prayers that I will truly want His will done as I struggle through this life for He has been good to me in sending His Son to take my judgment ,I do not want to shame Him now,may you all have a godly and bless day,and again thanks all of you