Congratulations... you are hearing the Word of Life & Deliverance.
We all know what it’s like to be tempted by Satan--and as others have suggested--that's exactly what you are talking about here. This is why the Bible is very careful to encourage us to take strict control our thinking. In John 10:10 Jesus said, “I came that you might have abundant life. Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy.”
During our time on earth, we all (surely) have the opportunity to meet with God and to have communion with Him--Holy Spirit to our frail human spirit. So, one of the first steps in self realization is knowing that Satan cannot touch our spirit; but that he does have almost unlimited access to affect us through our bodies and our souls. It is there that every temptation and all of the spiritual battles that you've heard about all of your life actually occur--including every fleshly desire that work to control and manipulate us.
One must ask: What do we have that Satan wants to steal, kill and destroy? Answer: It's the Abundant life that Jesus offers. Abundant life is a seed that must begin by being received by the good soil in the present. The good soil is a needful and trusting heart. If Satan can simply fill our feeble human minds full of hurt, bitterness, anger and guilt about the past--any one or more of the problems of this world; then he has stolen our present and destroyed our desire for an abundant life--by preventing us from ever truly receiving the seed of His Word. Therefore, if Satan can simply keep us so preoccupied with worry, fear and anxiety about the future, then he has successfully destroyed our chance for abundant life in the present--and (surely) the germination, growth and the chance of any harvest in what would have been our abundant and blessed future.
Congratulations, through your spirit you are hearing the Word of Life & Deliverance.